I LOST A JEWEL

First, I don't have any idea how to write this.
But, i had already started fantasying. According to her own revelation, we were born the same year. And, i have this natural thing for bit older ladies, or, atleast, same aged ones. I'm not always too proud to talk about it, anyway! I'v always believed i'll marry someone 7-10years younger than me. A sharp contradiction between what i feel and what i believe.

Well, while she went on, i found lots of things pleasing and suiting my soul. The honesty, the lovability and freemindedness and the rest. Very important things we could do without. She doesn't want to be pampered more than she's ready to care. From all she said as far, she just wants peace that could be worked out. She was 26 when she said the things; inked. But, 27, she had turned when i heard. I'm even surprised at how i'm writing this because love, loving and romance i don't like to front publicly. Like her, i try to hide how much i care about these things until recently. A new neighbour changed that. Not by talk anyway. She's volumptious and playful. So we talk coded erotic.

I was begining to be happier, she was saying things that fell within my acceptables. No, i don't have set standards as to what THE ONE 'must be' and, or, 'not be' before then, neither do i have now, but, the things i felt as i listened seemed as though certain preistalled boxes were being ticked with the pass mark. Where, though against my peripherial believe, is she from i still pondered. She doesn't seem to care about that, i sensed. Could i marry her? Age mates? How would we age? I also thought. Women age faster. A voice dropped. Could some be different? Is she one of the exceptions? How do i know? But, does it really matter? She had earlier said that, time, according to Africanism, was no longer on her side. At 26? Oh!, September 2016. You let a jewel away from 'munwa'.

So she dropped the 'I Lost A Jewel' precursor. But how could she! It became, as it were, in my mind; a lost fantasy. She could have just let me keep fantasying. Rather, than just cut the thing abruptly. Well, maybe good anyway. Just so i could move on and use my life and time better instead of wasting it. How would i think she could be this way. She had even talked about orgasm. And still talking this way? I'm still wondering o. Well, she looks it in a way shaa. Basically what this life is. The more you look, ... ...! But, is what i'm thinking what she really meant? Jewel!, ..is that? Could she really be an unplucked flower? Really? Or, is she simply talking about the Toyosi and Chima kind of situation? Can i have my Diary, Jennifer. She even tried to settle the scores between Toyo and Chima.

"I believe in abstinence until marriage, a bed kept pure. Thessalonians 4:3, 2 Timothy 2:22, 1 Cor 6:18…. I am not willing to compromise on this, which is why like I said, I hope you are Godly." She said.

Well, i've crossed this line already. My bed's no longer pure. Not because i don't believe in it, but because i couldn't keep it. So i've most likely lost a chance to think wether this jewel is The One or not. I wish you well. Wish you what you want. Dear Jewel!